I had the privilege of chatting with a friend yesterday who asked about when I would be posting some of my own stuff, and whether i ever got tired of the daily devotional. I resolved to continue posting my devotionals because this is my page and what I do with it is honestly my prerogative 🙂 i mean that in the most humble of ways.
About me, living each day like it was my last, except for today and yesterday. I met up with this guy, with whom we share a ‘butterflies-in-my-stomach’ physical history and my resolve to be true to myself and my Maker almost broke.
I was a bag of nerves around him at dinner with some of his friends last night. He’s gorgeous, amazing body, mind-blowing sense of respect for women, and yet there’s a cheeky streak to him which just has me giggling like a pubescent girl.
He likes me, I know.
I like him.
I want him, and he wants me…and I made a commitment to hold out on any sexual activity until my Maker zeros in on His choice for me, and that choice has ‘put a ring on it’. So you can imagine my frustration. A part of me readily wants to throw all caution to the wind and indulge. Another part of me is not for it, in case the rapture occurs and I’m left behind in a steamy and sweaty compromised position 🙂 I like to be on top of things, excuse the pun
My mind is made up, much as it frustrates me, when we do meet up later today, I am going to tell him about my decision not to indulge until the time when a Choice has been made, and a tiny rock has been placed on my dainty left wedding finger.
Ohh mmm mmmm mmmm!! He’s so my cup of tea, and I’m choosing not to take a gulp from it,
send out a prayer for me, wont you?
till next time,
easy does it 🙂