My week’s start…

Another week begins and I’ve got only one of 6 assignments covered. The other 5 are group assignments and the group members are the kind that make up the list, do zilch, and yet expect a free grade.
My work-out gets better by the day. Today’s triple set of 10’s abs crunches have me abuzz, I got to class in time,, listening to Regina Belle off a Walkman while I wait for the lecturer to show up.
Whilst watching tele last night, I learnt about the Freegan lifestyle where some people in New York pick food and furniture from the trash! Don’t be grossed out. These guys go through trash from hotels dumpsters, coffee shops, supermarkets….and the stuff that gets thrown out, like packs of milk a few days from their expiry date 4 days earlier, or  a pack of eggs thrown out because one was cracked…all this makes for loads of food, and these people pay an average of $10 a week on food, how cool is that?!
I’m giving it some thought, however the thought of trying to get you guys on the same thought train might attract reactions such as “Shaaa! Bandaba batya?!”
Till next time, easy does it.

Just when I thought I had it all in my stride…

I saw my ex at this new joint in town, with his madame…I wanted to leave as soon as I got there,but my girl convinced me otherwise. After one drink, I saw them leave, which kinda relaxed my urge to leave the party. I held it together until today, I’m in traffic, and it occurs to me that he’s moved on,and I’m still thinking…hurting…I broke down, tried to keep from ramming into the vehicle ahead of me as i had to repeatedly wipe the salty drizzle from my eyes…
And I don’t want to hear about, ‘time will healall wounds’ I know that for crying out loud!
I just need to find my happiness again, i need to occupy my thoughts and memory with something a lot more profound. A part of me wants to hate him, with the hope that I will feel better…I can’t do it. I know I’ve moved on, I just need to find my spring…I want to laugh again, beam with pleasure from anothers’ compliments to me, time spent with me.
And I need my Mother to cut me some slack…I don’t need the constant reminder that I’m single. And no match-making, please. I need the transition to be as natural as possible for me.
Feel free to listen, understand then pour out some words of wisdom.
Till next time, easy doe it

…i think i can, i think i can, i think i can…

The weekend is here, or at least it almost is, lol, and I’m still smelling like a rose, given the sh*t I’ve been through.
It’s becoming an art, my rising above riling situations, and keeping a cool head about it.
Must say I’m enjoying the backlash from

It gets easier by the day…

Throwing in the towel is so much easier than standing in that spot and fighting for whatever it is you live for….it could be anything ranging from a relationship with family and or partner, to a job, to a grade, to a belief you hold.
I know you can relate…or at least you’ve been to a place where, when faced with the decision to flee or fight, you hesitated for a bit.

All afternoon today for me has been spent listening to Ne-Yo’s ‘Part of the List’ (they’re posted just below) and got me thinking that much as I may tell myself that I have moved on from the relationship I was in a couple of months ago, doesn’t stop me from hyperventilating, ever so subtly each time I see him around, whether it’s at a rugby game, or at a relative’s funeral service… I look away in the inital shock at seeing him around…and then proceed to stay really still hoping he’ll relocate, and leave my space, previously I’d be the one that would want to leave, and each time, my girls talked me out of leaving a spot because he was around. Uncomfortable is the word that describes it.

I wont hide away from the fact that I break into a meddley of tears when I think back on the times before shit hit the fan, and granted I have met some nice guys, I can’t shake the small detail that not a single word has been exchanged ever since the break-up… And after reading those last few Rules for handling anger series…I’m left wondering whether, after 8 months of silence, should I be the one to go to him with this talk/discussion on resolving the anger I feel, even if I tell myself I’m not angry – at times I don’t feel the anger?

While I figure out what to do, and you figure out what to say to all that,
and I’d like to pick your brain a bit with this particular turn of events, breathe, and write your heart out,
till next time,
easy does it

Rules for handling anger (5)
‘…Let each one of you speak truth…’ Ephesians 4:25
Rule 5: Keep it in the laundry room. ‘Don’t treat each other with malice’ [ill will, spite] (Ephesians 4: 31 NIV). When you’re angry, spreading gossip is hard to resist. But malicious talk is like wildfire; it consumes those who spread it and those who listen to it. Don’t display your dirty wash; keep it in the laundry room.
Dirty laundry gets aired in two ways:
1) Open embarrassment. You say it where you know others are going to hear it.
2) Subtlety. You make jokes about their figure, family members and friends, etc., in order to belittle them. This results in embarrassment for the person you’re angry at, widens the gap between you and makes reconciliation impossible. Solomon writes: ‘…He that is of a faithful spirit concealeth the matter’ (Proverbs 11:13), and ‘…Love covereth all sins’ (Proverbs 10:12). Paul writes: ‘…In malice be babes, but in understanding be mature’ (1Corinthians 14:20 NKJV). Rule 6: Be part of the clean-up crew. We say, ‘They brought it on themselves. Let them get over it.’ They may have deserved it, but we can’t walk away and leave open wounds to become infected. We ‘…forgive, even as Christ…has forgiven’ us (Ephesians 4: 32). How did Christ forgive us? After we’d acknowledged, confessed and repented of our sins? No. ‘…When we were enemies, we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son…’ (Romans 5:10). God took the initiative, so forgive, before the other person asks for forgiveness. And should they remain your enemy for life, forgive them anyhow. That’s mopping up after the war. Only then are you yourself forgiven, the wounds you inflicted healed, and your record before God expunged!
http://www.ucb.co.uk/word_for_today

Part of the List Lyrics

Style of your hair,
shape of your eyes and your nose,
the way you stare
As if you see, right through to my soul,

It’s your left hand and the way
that it’s not quite as big as your right,
the way you stand in the mirror
before we go out at night,

Our quiet time,
your beautiful mind,

They’re a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

The way you sweet smell
lingers when you leave a room,
(you leave a room)
Stories you tell as we lay
in bed all afternoon.
(all afternoon)

I dreamed you now every night
in my mind is where we meet.
(my mind is where we meet)
and when I’m awake
staring at pictures of you asleep.

Touching your face,
invading you space.

They’re a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

Oooh, and you’ll live in my memories forever more I swear.
And you’ll live in my memories forever more I swear.

They’re a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile, or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.
beautiful song

…mental notes…

It has been a rather perplexing last couple of days, weeks even. There’d be days when I’d finish with work and just go home and catch zzz’s not because I was sleep-deprived, or hang over from a hectic evening from the night before…I have been on some kinda see-saw (is that how we spell it) between disappointed-in-who-I-am and what’s-my-purpose-on-this-earth

It didn’t help having a show producer that sprung talk show guests and topics on me the day I’m supposed to host them, and he’d go on to stress by being all over my space during the interview…I’m being patient about the whole thing. I’m hoping someone can realise how withdrawn I’ve become just so I can get my point across.

A part of me wants to know why I’m taking the time to cramp my style just to get a point across when I could merely ignore the sod and be the best one for my said job…and I ask myself the same thing some days, problem is the other days I had taken to feeling less than zero about everything that had to do with me, on all fronts.

It’s recently that I chose to stay awake and make an effort of utilising my day, thus the possibility to drop this wee blog.
I noticed that when it’s not that low thing I’m going through, then it could be anything else from this craving for food-stuffs, and my tush isn’t liking the results, so I lay off the food, then it will be this naughty thought about making out with the guy at work, problem with encouraging that thought is, should we go through with it, we’ll inevitably wind up behaving weird around each other after the fact, so no can do.

On the home front, I’m happy that my mother and I are talking, we weren’t for some time, and it wasn’t easy for dad to be mediator because then she’d question whether he was siding with ‘his daughter’…and we all know that’s a subtle battle call, that is best left unheeded.

As I write this, I have a burning sensation between my diaphragm and bottom of my rib cage, don’t know what that’s about. Will take a glass of water to drink, maybe that will give me some relief.
I’ll leave you with something to read about below,
happy to be back, if I may call it that,
till next time,
easy does it

Rules for handling anger (4)
‘…Let each one of you speak truth…’ Ephesians 4:25
Rule 4: Keep it solution-focused. Someone has said that fellowship is like two fellows in a ship: one can’t sink the other without sinking himself. By seeking to gain the upper hand you both lose. By seeking to save and strengthen the relationship you both win. So when you speak, be sure it’s ‘…helpful for building others up according to their needs…’ (Ephesians 4:29 NIV). Try to understand what the other person needs. Don’t bring up previously confessed offenses; don’t drag in other people; don’t use wisecracks about people’s weight, height, colour, IQ, physical, mental and emotional limitations; don’t bring up unrelated things that cloud the issue and keep you from finding a solution. And don’t raise the volume in order to intimidate and manipulate. God made you with a capacity for anger because when handled the right way it’s the fuel that brings needed change and the medicine that heals. So:
a) Seek a solution, not a ‘victory.’ Name-calling and ‘diagnosing’ others only makes things worse. Your focus should not be on what they did, but on what you can do together to resolve it

b) admit your own flaws and ask for forgiveness. Since it takes two to tango, acknowledging your own imperfections makes it easier for someone else to acknowledge theirs c) every time you take a ’swing’ at someone, offer them a positive ’stroke.’ ‘…If there be any virtue…think on these things’ (Philippians 4:8). For each of the difficulties you address, give a compliment. ‘I’m sure this wasn’t easy for you to hear. Thanks for listening to me so graciously.’ Being solution-focused gives people something positive to live up to, not down to!
http://www.ucb.co.uk/word_for_today

Rules for handling anger (3)
‘…Let each one of you speak truth….’ Ephesians 4:25
Rule 3: Keep it current. Storing anger in your hard drive only hurts you. When you download old resentments you start to rehearse them and grow bitter. ‘The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks’ (Luke 6:45 NIV). When you’re angry deal with it quickly. Don’t passively allow time to decide your options, or sit around hoping the other person will see the light and apologise. ‘If your brother sins against you, go [to] him…’ (Matthew 18:15 NIV). Try to resolve it and restore the relationship. When you repress it you add one more skeleton to your closet. Sooner or later, doctors say, it’ll be at your stomach lining, attack your immune system, predispose you to heart problems, cancers and other physical, social and emotional disorders. Meantime, it’ll preoccupy you, dissipate your energy, cripple your creativity, hinder your fellowship with God, your friends and fellow believers; not to mention that it denies the offender the opportunity to clear their conscience, repent and get right with God and you. Stop dragging up the past, trying to blackmail the guilty by hauling skeletons out of closets at ‘auspicious’ moments, plotting revenge, and passing down resentments for the next generation to carry. Ask God for the humility and courage to deal with today’s problems – today. When your head hits the pillow tonight, know that your issues are current, up to date with God and everyone else, and sleep well!
http://www.ucb.co.uk/index.cfm?itemid=88

Rules for handling anger (2)
‘…Let each one of you speak truth….’ Ephesians 4:25
Rule 2: Keep it non-lethal. Paul writes: ‘In your anger do not sin…’ (Ephesians 4:26 NIV). What do Paul’s words mean? Don’t let your anger escalate to the point of doing damage. Don’t use your words as a weapon or a control mechanism. It’s okay to express your emotions in a healthy way, but keep them in check. Your goal must be to resolve the problem and strengthen the relationship, not ’sound off’ and wound the other person. Is this easy to do? No. You’ll need a good strong dose of grace to do it. Words spoken in jest, sarcasm, self-righteousness or ‘righteous indignation’ wound people, sometimes permanently. ‘…Perverseness [of the tongue] breaks the spirit.’ (Proverbs 15:4 NKJV). ‘…A crushed spirit who can bear?’ (Proverbs 18:14 NIV). ‘The tongue can bring death…’ (Proverbs 18:21 NLT). Angry words, once unleashed, can: ‘…Go down into a man’s inmost parts’ (Proverbs 26:22 NIV). Your words can live in the heart and memory of a person and go all the way to the grave with them. We say, ‘Sticks and stones may break my bones, but names will never hurt me,’ but it’s not true. A person can die of a crushed spirit, and the one who spoke the words can live to regret the damage they inflicted and never get a chance to undo it. On the other hand, anger properly handled never needs to be repented of. So learn to differentiate between the anger you feel and the words you speak. Anger carefully thought through, can reveal important information about needed changes. Focus on that, and ask God to show you what needs changing in the other person; and you!
http://www.ucb.co.uk/index.cfm?itemid=88&testdate=16 Jun 2009

Rules for handling anger (1)
‘…Let each one of you speak truth…’ Ephesians 4:25
Two forceful personalities in a relationship are like two rivers flowing into one; there’s going to be a strong current. Anger can be instant like a flash of lightning, or prolonged like the rumble of thunder. Sometimes we clash painfully, other times we distance and silently abandon the relationship. But anger handled the right way doesn’t have to destroy. Here are God’s rules for handling your anger. Rule 1: Keep it honest. ‘Stop telling lies. Let us tell…the truth…don’t sin by letting anger control you…’ (Ephesians 4:25-26 NLT). When you’re angry don’t deny it. Anger can be constructive. We’re right to get angry when people are mistreated and wrongs are not made right. Saying, ‘I’ve been feeling angry and because I value our relationship I’d like to talk about it,’ is honest, non-threatening and invites resolution. Observe:
a) ignoring, stifling, suppressing, or pretending you’re not angry is basically dishonest

b) another form of lying when you’re angry is exaggeration. ‘You never listen to what I say.’ ‘You always ignore my wishes.’ ‘Nobody does anything around here except me.’ Such generalisations are untrue and serve only to aggravate and polarise, guaranteeing the real problem gets obscured and goes unsolved

c) another way to lie when you’re angry is blaming. ‘If you’d arrive on time I wouldn’t have to nag you,’ or ‘If you’d quit nagging so much, maybe I’d start being on time.’ Blaming is a way of evading your own responsibility while pointing the finger at others. It angers others, perpetuates your own anger and never produces the result you want. God’s way is, ‘Let each one of you speak truth,’ and it works when you do it in love.
http://www.ucb.co.uk/index.cfm?itemid=88&testdate=15 Jun 2009

Parents to be…(2)

The way that’s best for your child (2)

‘Train up a child in the way he should go…’ Proverbs 22:6

You say, ‘She’s such an obedient child, but her brother breaks every rule!’ Or, ‘Our first child’s so organised; our second’s a disaster area!’ Children are created unique. Dealing with that reality is a parent’s great challenge. Look at God’s directives in Proverbs 22:6. 1) ‘Train up a child.’ Thoughtful, loving, productive, happy children don’t just evolve – they’re trained. Our latchkey generation has proved ‘…A child left to himself disgraces his [parents]‘ (Proverbs 29:15 NIV). Wise parents choose their child’s direction, then maintain it by positive reinforcement and consistent discipline. They mould their child’s attitude and behaviour in line with God’s Word. Solomon’s reference to a child in this Scripture indicates a pre-teen who can still be moulded. If you miss those early training years your job’s tough, but with God’s help, not impossible. 2) ‘In the way he should go.’ Ever hear of ‘cross-grain parenting’? It’s trying to make your child something they’re not meant to be. Forcing square pegs into round holes invites rebellion in spirited kids and creativity-destroying conformity in compliant ones. This Scripture in The Amplified Bible advocates training a child, ‘In the way… [In keeping with his individual gift or bent].’ Study your child’s gifts, then direct them accordingly. Putting square pegs into square holes reduces resistance, invites cooperation and recognises your child’s God-ordained destiny. When it’s their path, not yours, they’ll commit to it. 3) ‘When he is old he will not depart from it.’ When they’re in the place God designed them for, nobody needs to manipulate, control or threaten them. They’re invested, creative, challenged, fulfilled and happy to grow up in the square hole God shaped for them!
http://www.ucb.co.uk/index.cfm?itemid=88&testdate=13%20Jun%202009

Have a fabulous week ahead,
hopefully I’ll put down more than just a few lines of myself, huh
till next time,
easy does it

Parents to be….and those that already are…

The way that’s best for your child (1)

‘Through wisdom a house is built, and by understanding it is established.’ Proverbs 24:3

You say, ‘I raised all my children the same way, how come this one is a problem?’
1) Congratulations on succeeding with your other kids! You’re ahead of the curve. A good family rule is: Pray about your shortcomings; focus on your successes. Don’t obsess over one particular child, short-changing the others of your time and attention. Though it doesn’t feel natural, reduce your intense concentration on your problem child. Stop ‘fixing’ them, enjoy all your children, and watch things improve.
2) Children develop at different rates and in different ways. Many problem children are just late arrivers; give them the time they need.
3) Most families have a ‘black sheep.’ They make us uncomfortable by not doing life like the rest of us. Accept what you don’t like about them until God either changes them or teaches the family mature, unconditional, non-controlling love through them.
4) You do your best as an imperfect but loving parent, then your children, not you, make their own choices. The prophet Samuel’s sons ‘did not walk in his ways. They turned aside after dishonest gain and accepted bribes and perverted justice’ (1 Samuel 8:3 NIV). Embarrassing and disappointing, yes! But no charge of spiritual or parental failure is laid on Samuel’s doorstep. As godly a man as ever lived, he ‘walked the talk.’ But when push came to shove, his sons had their options and chose not to do likewise. However dysfunctional your child may be, under God their greatest asset is a parent who responds by faith, not by fixing, by praying, not prying, and who gets out of God’s way and lets Him work.
http://www.ucb.co.uk/word_for_today

The Master’s Apprebtice and all you prospective parents, from me to you with love.
I’m about to catch that game between D-Mark against Warriors, I’m excited,
catch you tomorrow, with a follow-up series for the prospective parents, no?!
till next time,
easy does it

‘Above and beyond’

‘If someone forces you to go one mile, go…two…’ Matthew 5:41

In Roman times soldiers could make Jewish citizens carry their gear for a mile. But Jesus says: ‘”If someone forces you to go one mile, go…two.”‘ Max Lucado writes: ‘We’ve a second-mile servant in our church. By profession he’s an architect; by passion, a servant. Prior to each worship service he does his rounds through the men’s restrooms…wipes sinks, cleans mirrors, checks toilets and picks up paper. He tells no one and requests nothing in return…Let me tell you how to spot [second-milers]. They don’t wear badges or uniforms; they wear smiles. They’ve discovered …joy in the extra effort…satisfaction in helping others…that the real reward rests at the base of the second mile-post… Why? Liberation! They’ve passed from slave to volunteer. When Mary anointed Jesus’ feet, one-milers like Judas criticised the deed as wasteful. Not Jesus. He received the gesture as a demonstration of love, a friend surrendering her most treasured gift. There’s an elderly man in your community who just lost his wife. An hour of your time would mean the world to him. Some kids in your city have no dad to take them to the cinema or football games. Maybe you can. They can’t pay you back but they’ll smile like a cheshire cat at your kindness. How about this one? Down the landing is a person who shares your last name. Shock them with kindness…your homework done with no complaints…coffee served when they awake…a love letter written for no special reason. Alabaster poured out ‘just because.’ Jesus chose the servants’ quarters. Can’t we?’ John Gardner said, ‘When people are serving, life is no longer meaningless.’ You’re not called to ‘get by,’ you’re called to go ‘above and beyond.’
http://www.ucb.co.uk/word_for_today

To all you two-mile-rs’ nice knowing you,
look out for an invitation to my home, for an evening out, to make up for passing up BHH
till next time,
easy does it

Knowing what ‘is also written’

‘…Jesus answered…’It is also written…” Matthew 4:7

After the blessing comes the battle! And Jesus was no exception. Following His baptism ‘…the Spirit sent him out into the desert’ (Mark 1:12 NIV), and after fasting forty days He was hungry. That’s when satan showed up and said, ‘If you are the Son of God, tell these stones to become bread’ (Matthew 4:3 NIV). You can count on the enemy to show up at your most vulnerable moments. And when he does you’d better know what the Word of God actually says – not just selected snippets and quotes you’ve heard second or third hand. ‘All scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching …in righteousness’ (2 Timothy 3:16 NIV). We pick the parts of Scripture that fit our lifestyle and bolster our theology, but when the enemy manipulates God’s Word and uses it against you, you need to be able to say, ‘It is also written.’ You need to know what else God has to say. The Bible says satan ‘will speak against the Most High…oppress his saints and try to change…times and …laws…’ (Daniel 7:25 NIV). Satan knows the Word of God is ‘…a double-edged sword…’ (Hebrews 4:12 NCV), but he’ll still try to engage you in a swordfight! But ‘Jesus answered…’It is also written: Do not put…God to the test.’ He knew what His Father had actually said, and refused to allow satan to dictate His responses, including what He should eat. Whose menu are you eating from today? Are you like the prodigal, settling for pig-swill while your Father has a feast prepared for you? Tell satan, ‘…Get thee behind me…’ (Matthew 16:23), and stop letting him bamboozle you with lies and half-truths! Get into God’s Word and get it into you!
http://www.ucb.co.uk/word_for_today

I’m at a point in time when I need to know for sure what it is that is written…I feel very vulnerable right now…
without further ado…I’ll dig in to the Word,
I would like to know that you’re alright,
take good care,
till next time,
easy does it

What are you called to do? (3)

‘You are the salt of the earth…’ Matthew 5:13

Observe: 1) Your calling is often connected to what troubles you deeply. For Moses it was the oppression of his people. So God used that, and called Moses to lead his people to freedom. For William Wilberforce it was slavery. He devoted his entire life to seeing it eradicated in England, which it finally was shortly before his death. For Dr Martin Luther King, Jr, it was the injustice of a society that enslaved and oppressed African-Americans. So he dreamed and he preached and he marched and he organised and he boycotted, and the Civil Rights Movement was galvanised. If you want to discover your calling, begin praying about what troubles you deeply. Usually we try to avoid unpleasantness, but if you have a sense that your calling involves helping the poor, spend time around those in poverty. Allow your heart to be moved, carry within you the conviction that things must change, and keep praying, ‘Lord, make me a change agent.’ 2) Your calling means God believes in you. When Jesus called His disciples they didn’t look like winners. Generally, in their day if someone was going to be the follower of a rabbi it happened much earlier. Plus, rabbis didn’t recruit, they took applications. But not Jesus. He picked a doctor, a tax collector and fishermen and said, ‘I believe in you. What I know I will teach you.’ He promised, ‘…He who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also…’ (John 14:12 NKJV). No wonder they left their nets! Jesus empowered His followers to go out to live as He lived. Today, that’s what He is calling you to do.
http://www.ucb.co.uk/index.cfm?itemid=88&testdate=28 May 2009

I have the flu…I worked aloone on the show today, did feel rather lonely, kinda says something about the light in which I see my co-host. With that said, I need to find my on-air mojo back…suggestions are welcome,
that aside, I am unable to comment to posts made on my blog, is wordpress losing it? I have a lot to say to what’s been said on my wall…sorry…my blog
till next time,
easy does it

Not sure I’ll make it for the happy hour tonight, I’m a little under the weather, but we could have a txt msg war…yes I’m back on air, so txt me during BHH and let’s all have a bl-all, tee hee hee

What are you called to do? (2)

‘You are the salt of the earth…’ Matthew 5:13

When God called Moses, one of the questions He asked him was, ‘…What is that in your hand?…’ (Exodus 4:2 NIV). Moses held his shepherd’s staff. It represented his livelihood; it’s what he was good at. It represented his income; his flock was his wealth and his family’s security. God asked him to be willing to lay it down. God still asks, ‘What is that in your hand?’ What has been given to you? Your gifts, your money, your temperament, your experience, your relationships, your mind, your education. God has given you what Dr Martin Seligman calls ’signature strengths.’ Seligman found that human abilities fall into certain categories. He defined them as: a) wisdom and knowledge (which includes abilities like curiosity, love of learning, sound judgement, and social intelligence) b) courage (perseverance and integrity) c) humanity (with capacities for kindness and the expression of mercy) d) justice (the ability to bring about fairness and leadership) e) temperance (qualities like self control, prudence, humility) f) transcendence (the appreciation of beauty, the expression of gratitude, the ability of hope, the capacity for joy). We all have the capacity for each of these strengths, but a few resonate more deeply in you; they are your ’signature strengths.’ Identify these, and you begin to understand your calling. Sometimes we think God couldn’t or wouldn’t use us because of our weaknesses. No, the opposite is true. No one can speak to those who grieve, better than those who’ve suffered loss. Chuck Colson was the chief White House lawyer, until Watergate. But it wasn’t until he was a convict that he was prepared to begin prison fellowship. Today, if you let him, God will use you.
http://www.ucb.co.uk/index.cfm?itemid=88&testdate=27 May 2009

Still love Manchester United, I do,
twas a beautiful game, congs Barcelona,
till later today,
easy does it

What are you called to do? (1)

‘You are the salt of the earth…’ Matthew 5:13

Sometimes what a person contributes doesn’t get noticed until they’re no longer around to do it. The story’s told of the husband who came home from work to find his house in a complete mess. The baby was crying, there were dishes piled up in the sink and dirty laundry on the floor. The TV was blaring, beds weren’t made, carpets weren’t vacuumed and dinner wasn’t ready. When he demanded to know what was up, his wife said, ‘You know how you always ask what I’ve been doing all day? Well, today I didn’t do it.’ The Bible says, ‘…Each one should retain the place in life …to which God has called him…’ (1Corinthians 7:17 NIV). This doesn’t mean that we should not aspire to greater things. It just means that if we can’t start here where we are, we can’t start at all. One day Jesus healed a demon-possessed man who’d spent years separated from his family. After being set free, the man wanted to travel with Jesus. But Jesus said, ‘…No, go back home and tell them what the Lord has done for you…’ (Luke 8:39). In other words, start where you are, use what you’ve got, and do what you can. The Bible says: ‘You are the salt of the earth.’ Salt doesn’t exist for its own pleasure. It must be poured into something bigger than itself; only then does it fulfil its purpose. But be careful, don’t be ego-driven. The quest for significance can be misleading. You can’t do it by yourself for yourself, you must do it with God and for His purposes; then God will bless you!
http://www.ucb.co.uk/word_for_today

And to think that I had just had a wee burst up with some guy at work over his failure to do his job and yet felt the need to get in my space and time on the radio show, totally disorganising my flow and then swanttering off like he had made his mark….*&&^%# yes I came that close to saying somethings I wouldn’t be too proud of.

Was anticipating a quiet mellow evening with Mr. Gentleman, only to have him cancel with the reason that he’d be working late. I’m gutted and wasn’t holding my breath…I lie, I was gasping in anticipation waiting on his response when  I asked whether we were still meeting up…remember? Anticipation?!

I’ve since calm down…a part of me feels like stuffing my face with fries, or is it ice cream? Can’t decide… I know for a fact that the way I feel isn’t where I want to be. And the amusing thing is that, much as I’m an emotional being, I’m primarily spirit and flesh…which is agonising when the physical seems to dictate how one ‘feels’

…I’ll be alright,
you better be having a better time than i am, because you deserve it,
go get them,
till next time,
easy does it