Subconsciously I have come to learn a thing or two about myself.

Celine Dion’s ‘Don’t Let Me Be The Last To Know’ plays soothingly in the background that is the headphones that adorn my head. And I can’t help but draw some parallels in the way I have handled some jobs, men, friends, girlfriends, and milestone challenges that needed me to make a firm yet grounded decision about whether to pursue or let live.

Usually that gnawing fear of the unknown outcome, should I choose one way, plagues my mind, and rocks the core of my being. The proverbial cold sweats kick in, and for the life of me, I have folded and walked away from all the above, although in no particular order.
The thing about 2015 is, no more miss goodie two shoes.
I want more. I refuse to make any apologies for what it is that I want.
I will fight for my peace of mind.

I am living like everything depends on me, primarily because the reality of it all is finally sinking in.
I move into my new home this week, and can see my first few months spent on the floor, with my books, a carton of water and crackers until I am able to do more with this new found personal space.

Live. Love Lead.
Till next time,

Easy does it  :)

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Just when I thought I had it all in my stride…

I saw my ex at this new joint in town, with his madame…I wanted to leave as soon as I got there,but my girl convinced me otherwise. After one drink, I saw them leave, which kinda relaxed my urge to leave the party. I held it together until today, I’m in traffic, and it occurs to me that he’s moved on,and I’m still thinking…hurting…I broke down, tried to keep from ramming into the vehicle ahead of me as i had to repeatedly wipe the salty drizzle from my eyes…
And I don’t want to hear about, ‘time will healall wounds’ I know that for crying out loud!
I just need to find my happiness again, i need to occupy my thoughts and memory with something a lot more profound. A part of me wants to hate him, with the hope that I will feel better…I can’t do it. I know I’ve moved on, I just need to find my spring…I want to laugh again, beam with pleasure from anothers’ compliments to me, time spent with me.
And I need my Mother to cut me some slack…I don’t need the constant reminder that I’m single. And no match-making, please. I need the transition to be as natural as possible for me.
Feel free to listen, understand then pour out some words of wisdom.
Till next time, easy doe it

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My week’s start…

Another week begins and I’ve got only one of 6 assignments covered. The other 5 are group assignments and the group members are the kind that make up the list, do zilch, and yet expect a free grade.
My work-out gets better by the day. Today’s triple set of 10’s abs crunches have me abuzz, I got to class in time,, listening to Regina Belle off a Walkman while I wait for the lecturer to show up.
Whilst watching tele last night, I learnt about the Freegan lifestyle where some people in New York pick food and furniture from the trash! Don’t be grossed out. These guys go through trash from hotels dumpsters, coffee shops, supermarkets….and the stuff that gets thrown out, like packs of milk a few days from their expiry date 4 days earlier, or  a pack of eggs thrown out because one was cracked…all this makes for loads of food, and these people pay an average of $10 a week on food, how cool is that?!
I’m giving it some thought, however the thought of trying to get you guys on the same thought train might attract reactions such as “Shaaa! Bandaba batya?!”
Till next time, easy does it.

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Tie My Hair Down – Lena Emerson

….read for yourself :)

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for Poem Tie My Hair Down

My bed is empty but there are plenty of men who’d like to fill it. My pillow and sheets lay cold but there are plenty of men who’d like to warm them. I stand naked preparing for slumber my back aching, but there are plenty of men who wouldn’t mind massaging in scented oil. My arms raised as a black woman, I must tie my hair down, there are plenty of men who would lend me a hand and wrap my hair the best they can.
There are plenty of men who would stand behind me, who would caress me, stroke me, palm my full breast and cause me pleasure again and then once more again. There are plenty of men who would kiss my spine all the way down till they hit my behind, then continue using their tongue to outline every one of my delicate curves.
There are…

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The Heart Is Not So Smart.

2016 all those decisions have been revoked from you, heart dearest.

 

This is why…

 

Acts 6:3 sums it up perfectly: “Choose… men… who are known to be full of the Spirit and wisdom.”

 

Till next time ;)

Easy does it.

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What Does It Mean (For A Lady) To Be Pursued?

This year has seen me walk away from wonderful opportunities and people because the situations arising, rubbed me the wrong way….and I subscribe to the school of thought that says ‘Life is to be savoured and not belaboured’.

For the life of me, I don’t know what deliberate and purposeful pursuit looks like.
Is it anything like the crested cranes’ type of pursuit?
#IfWeAreNotGrowingOldTogether_I_Dont_Want_It

Feel free to share your thoughts.
And experiences.

Till next time :)
Easy does it.

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Where Did Twenty Fifteen Go?

I very well might be opening a new chapter in the journey, despite the year closing on a somber note.
The debilitating thought of falling flat on my face in light of all these unearthed passions swirling around on the inside of me, is just that, a thought.

For everyone that I may have reached out to this year, and did meet, thank you.

As the clock turns, may the approaching dozen months be everything you need them to be.

Till next time ;)
easy does it

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How Cuba is Achieving Food Security Without Destroying its Environment

We would do well to emulate this

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Cuba achieved food security without destroying its environment, and the rest of the world has taken notice, TeleSur reports.
Cuba is presenting several of its original biotechnologies at an international business fair this week, drawing further attention to a sector of the Cuban economy that’s been generating substantial interest abroad.

The Cuban Center for Genetic Engineering and Biotechnology presented various biotechnological innovations at the fair: all eco-friendly and biodegrable alternatives to conventional technologies, which could help the transition toward a more sustainable model of agriculture.

Among them was, “Gavac,” an immunogen that provides for better control over ticks and tick-related infections in cattle, according to Doctor Hector Machado of Cuba’s Heber Biotec company.

Gavac’s formula reduces the use of chemical insecticides, noted Machado, while diminishing the risk of diseases being transmitted by ticks, improving an animal’s natural capacity to respond to an infection without increasing their resistance to treatment.

Gavac…

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Happy to be home

I slept like a baby.

The news has clips of inter-korean family reunions that are pulling at my heartstrings.

What is infront of you?

What’s in your heart?

Delight in the Lord Jesus exceedingly today. I am.

Blessings

Till next  time,

Easy Does It :)

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It’s been fun. Goodbye renting.

I had a good introspective time away

Slept on a cuppa and chips

Or “guntu”.

I miss having family around.

So I return home at the morn.

Till next time,

Easy does it :)

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